Enjoying Life

I always love visiting with my mom on my treat days. She makes such good food plus I enjoy spending time with her. Today we had lasagna and strawberry pound cake for dessert. During our meal my mom is fussing about about how the lasagna doesn't look perfect or the pound cake fell apart when she removed it from the pan. Personally, those details do not bother me. What matters is that my mother prepares our meals with love and good natural ingredients. I always feel healed when I eat food she fixes for me no matter how fancy or simple. Last summer when I was so sick she made me a cool tall glass of lemon grass tea. I thought I died and went to heaven with every sip. Just like the negative people in our lives are our teachers the positive ones are too. There is so much I can learn from my mom. She has compassion for living things especially plants and animals. I want to be a much more loving person and not so full of anger and impatience. I keep telling myself I will get there. I know I will. There are a million emotions I'm feeling during this moment. It's challenging to put all that I feel and think into words. Life has never felt so good to me as it has now and I have never felt so loved and cared about as I have now. I'm finally healing after all these years of struggling to like myself, and wishing at times that I could die. I want to live now more than ever. I want to see how far I can go, and find this person that's been hiding all these years. I have no idea what I'll be like this time next year but I am confident I will not be the same. I will be whole. Be well and blessed.