The Realization Conclusion

I arrive nervously to my first appointment at API in Tyler. I had no idea what to expect. I see the door with skull and cross bones design and immediately felt intimidated. I am asking myself what the hell am I getting myself into. As I walk inside, I see battle ropes, over sized tractor and truck tires. and I begin to feel excited. I realize how much fun I will soon be having. My anxiety and fear were immediately put to ease by the owner Josh. He explained the program, what to expect, and how this will change my life. Josh asks me to stay another thirty minutes so he can assess my condition. He requests that I walk casually for two minutes pretending I was at the mall. It didn't take thirty seconds for me to get out of breath and feel like a fish out of water. The enormity of my weight hit me hard like a hammer. Here I was barely able to walk for two minutes!!! I thought oh my something has got to change and now! I want to add that me waking up to reality started when I was unable to do basic things all of us do every day and take for granted. I was not able to tie my shoes, I couldn't even put on a pair of bluejeans without feeling like I had  been put through boot camp. Being obese sucks and it takes the life out of you. Morbid obesity feels like committing suicide slowly and painfully. That's my experience and I was falling apart on the inside. When my assessment was done, I made my first appointment with my trainer Sam. She was so nice to me and helped me feel comfortable and reassured me that we were going to work on this together. Sam was on my side and cheering me on. My first day of training was amazing. I cried, laughed, and for the first time felt I was finally on the right track. I always wanted a personal trainer and now it seemed that God, the Universe, or whatever you call it blessed me BIG time!!!!! I feel that I owe a world of gratitude to my mother who has been there for me every step of the way. She and I both have spent years trying to find an answer, anything that would help me feel better. On my paperwork, the reasons for losing weight: To Get My Life and Dignity Back. The reason for weight gain: Too much junk and way too many cokes (I was drinking half a twelve pack easy!!!). Sam explained how moving even just a little bit makes a huge difference. If all you can do is walk thirty seconds, then by golly do it.  It's a starting place and beats doing nothing. The great thing is that you can work up to walking one minute, two minutes and so on. Weight loss takes determination, lifestyle changes, and the ability to be kind to yourself and not beat yourself up. I didn't gain weight because I'm a loser and a sorry individual. It was a combination of many factors and took time. I am discovering as I begin to work on my health, I feel better, I can finally SLEEP ALL NIGHT!!!!!!!!!! Heck last week I walked around Wal-Mart, it felt like a workout but I did it. So there's progress and I've been doing this for three months now. I wish you all could see me my first day and then see me today during working out. I'm not the same person. Sam is a tremendous source of inspiration. She pushes me too but not beyond my limits. Sam always reminds me that I am the one doing the hard work, she's just there guiding me. I feel blessed and so happy. Be well and be blessed!