Moving in the right direction

Gaining weight is a viscous cycle. Losing weight is positive but requires time, effort, and lots of hard work. In a sense I have to get my hands dirty and get the job done. There is no turning back and the only direction I can go is forward. I have to force myself to move beyond all the kicking, screaming, wanting to give up, anger and push myself into a more balanced way of "being". Today was one of those days I had to get my head straight and shake off the negativity. Feeling upset about the past and everything that contributed to my weight gain isn't going to do me any good. The only useful part of the past is looking at where I have come from. Just three months ago I could not walk down the hallway without losing my breath. Today I walked for three and a half minutes without stopping. I didn't feel like dying or like a fish out of water. That is a huge step. When you have gotten to a point where everyday activities are impossible life is depressing. Taking small steps each day move me closer to reaching my goal. It will take time yes, but along the way I will have gained my life, dignity, self-respect, and self-worth back. I will have also become a stronger person not so afraid of the world or constantly worrying about what others think about me. I have arrived to the point where I'm not wasting time with people who are not healthy for me. There are individuals I have to let go of for any number of reasons. It hurts, it hurts deeply and I don't like it. I am surrounding myself with others who are more in tuned with my goals. Life is funny friends move in and out of our lives so quickly. I have friends from way back I was so close to and could never imagine my life without them and now, they never respond to me and it seems we have moved in different directions. I feel many changes are happening and that makes me feel wonderful. I feel hopeful at what the future holds. In my personal opinion, if you choose to lose weight please surround yourself with positive and supportive people. The support of family and friends is immeasurable. This isn't easy to do by yourself. This is true for any goal or challenge we have set for ourselves. Do not give up, do not let anyone bring you down, and please whatever you do, never allow anyone to take away what makes you, you. Be blessed and well.