Happy Evolution

I am the happiest I have ever been in my life at this very moment. Seriously I really am. I feel like a bird that is slowly hatching from an egg ready to spread my wings and finally take flight. This past three months has been an evolution for me. I used to be a broken person inside and out. You could tell just by looking at me that I wasn't happy and I certainly didn't feel good. When I awoke this morning I thought about how my former job as a jailer and how it was not for me. I realized it wasn't what I was meant to do. Being in a jail setting wasn't my calling. I had numerous people tell me this job did not fit my personality, I was too nice, polite etc... I used to take that as an insult but now I don't. I'm happy there are people who are meant for jobs like that. It takes a special person to work in such a challenging environment. I finally know what path I want to take and it makes me feel free. I don't regret all the difficulties I've had in life whether they are personal, job related, or something else entirely. All of my struggles have made me a better and stronger person. Words are inadequate in describing how the past three months have been for me. I knew this journey would change my life but I didn't know it would be so drastic. I wake up each day feeling I have a purpose for living and doing my very best each day. Life feels so good right now and I am so thankful and grateful. I want to help others achieve the life of their dreams. I would like to be a source of hope, encouragement, and inspiration. I have the intention of telling someone if I can do this then I know you can do anything you put your mind to. Most importantly, I want to tell others that life isn't hopeless or meaningless. I know from experience how that feels, I've felt the pain, despair, the struggle to get out of bed and face the day ahead. I want to take all of the negativity from my past and turn it into something positive. That is my intention and desire. I wish I would have realized this sooner but maybe now is the perfect time to start. I've spent enough time doing what I thought others think I should do with my life. Now, I'm living for me, loving me, taking care of me, and finally forgiving myself. I owe a huge thank you to all the people in my life who never liked me, were hateful, critical, and even those who hate me with a passion. They have been the best teachers I've ever had in life. This includes people from childhood until now. I wish I could say "Thank You" for helping me see my true self and enabling me to become a stronger person who is no longer broken. I'm not broken anymore. I'm repaired and get regular tune up three times a week with my trainer who is also one of my dearest friends. I'm so blessed in many, many ways. I really am and I couldn't be happier with my friends or my family if I tried. I have to mention my dog Abby, she brings me so much happiness and smiles each day. I wonder why we humans can't be more like animals in some ways. Animals don't back stab, gossip, or tell all your secrets. They LOVE and keep loving more and more. God has been so good to me in life. Life is good even though bad things happen it's worth everything to me. Be well and blessed.