Starting Over Again

I never meant for my absence to be this long from my blog. I found myself engulfed by a lot of negativity in my life. I began to doubt that anyone would benefit from my entries because I didn't know what to say anymore. The holidays didn't help much either. I lost focus and felt disappointed in myself. Several of my close friends and family encouraged me to start blogging again. I made the decision to change my environment and moved back to the country. While I enjoyed the many benefits of city life it was not helpful to my physical health. I always had a feeling of being on display to my neighbors and anyone who would drive by my home. I realize that people really aren't paying any attention but I found it challenging to make myself go walking or exercise. I find life in the country much easier plus there is always something to do on a farm. I have a garden to tend, animals to care for, and lots of space to exercise. I have only been away from the city for one week and I already feel a thousand percent better. I am able to sit outside, enjoy the fresh air, meditate, and commune with nature. I live a very quiet and peaceful life. I do not tolerate excessive amounts of external stimuli, just ask my family during family gatherings. I usually evacuate to my room and reappear later. I feel that I also began to worry about living up to others expectations of what kind of progress I should be making and how fast.  I don't mean to do this and it's something I struggle with daily. I can only do what I can and as long as I'm doing all the right things everything should be just fine. I believe that the country life is going to help a tremendous amount. I feel better each day. The heaviness and darkness is leaving. Life is so good and I am so blessed to have my friends and family. I hope you all are still willing to give my blog another chance. I wish you all success and happiness because you deserve it. Be blessed and well.